Chojin Sentai Jetman Nostalgia

Out of the blue today, I began searching for my favorite sentai character hero, Gai Yuuki (Black Condor of Chojin Sentai Jettoman).  Guess what, I've found out that he guested in episode 28 of Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger (2011 Sentai presentation).  Episode 28 was entitled "Wings Eternal."  I became excited because I just used to see Toshihide Wakamatsu as Gai Yuuki in Jetman since his dramas after Jetman were only shown in Japan.  I remember when I was at the hype of being a Jetman fanatic back in college, I would even visit his official website made by him and would use Babel Translator to translate the Japanese characters of the website.  Then, after sometime, I shifted my interest to newer Asian series.




BRIEF BACKGROUND ABOUT Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger

Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger is the 35th presentation of  Toei Company for Super Sentai.  As the theme of this sentai, the rangers are pirates from outer space who came to earth to look for the "Greatest Treasure in the Universe."  This greatest treasure could only be in their possessions if they acquire the "greater powers" of the 34 Sentai Series heroes.  In search of the greatest treasure, they encountered Empire Zangyack in which its earlier invasion on Earth became a failure because its forces were defeated by the earlier 34 Sentai heroes. Gokaiger aimed to master the powers of the 34 Sentai heroes to fight and end the Zangyack forces.


BRIEF HISTORY ABOUT CHOJIN SENTAI JETMAN

Chojin Sentai Jettoman was shown in Japan in 1991. The series started with the scientists discovering "Birdonic Waves" which can be bio-engineered to bond them to humans through advanced technology to obtain superhuman abilities.  J-Project was formed with Commander Aya "Chokan" Odagiri as its director.  She, then, recruited 5  Skyforce officials  for the J-Project including Ryu Tendo and his girlfriend, Rie Aoi.  They both agreed with Aya that their relationship won't affect their responsibilities as warriors. Inside the International Defense Space Ship, after the Birdonic Wave was successfully transferred to Ryu Tendo (as Red Hawk), alien invaders (Vyram) headed by Radigue started their attack.  Aya and Rie dragged the weakened Ryu.  While getting out of chaos, a huge hole sucked Rie to the outer space leaving Ryu in hysteria.  Aya knocked the panicking Ryu and  escaped before the spaceship totally exploded. The capsule where the other 4 Birdonic Waves were stored was destroyed scattering on Earth like 4 lightnings hitting 4 civilians who had different personalities and were in refusal (during the beginning of the series) to be Jetman and protect the earth. 




THE GUY NAMED GAI YUUKI 

 

Black Condor is the alter ego of Gai Yuuki.  He was the most obnoxious member of the Jetman force.  He was a lone wolf guy who loved flirting with women.  He loved to smoke, drink, gamble, and play saxophone.  At the beginning of the series, he would always opposed Ryu and had a lot of fist fights with him.  He also developed a deep love to his teammate, Kaori Rokumeikan because of her finesse and determination to be a soldier in spite of  a very sheltered life she had.  His hatred to Ryu flamed when he learned that Kaori liked Ryu.  Ryu, during those moments, was still in grief after losing his fiancee, Rie Aoi (who was made a Vyram as Maria).  Gai and Kaori became a couple for a short while.  Gai seeing the strong Ryu collapsed with his lost love, realized his role as the the second leader of the Jetman.  He faced Grey to a duel and defeated him.

Years after the final battle with the Vyram, Gai was stabbed when he was buying flowers for Kaori and Ryu's wedding.  He was stilll able to go to the wedding, talk to Ryu and bid goodbye from afar to Kaori.  Then, he lost consciousness sitting on the bench.

Revealing The Mystery


 It was a mystery to every sentai fans especially Jetman fanatics what really happened to him - if he really died although it was evident that he became unconscious on the bench.


I read a lot of sentai forums and they have one thing in common.  They all find Gai's death pointless.  Why kill Gai without purpose?  Although, during the interview with Toshihide Wakamatsu, he said that Toshike Inoue revealed to him that Gai would die at the end of the series. I agreed with the forumers, however.  There were other sentai heroes who were killed as the series progressed but their deaths had purposes.  They died to save their teammates.  


After 19 years of being puzzled, finally, the sentai writers came up with an answer.  Gai Yuuki's ghost manifested in episode 18 of Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger.  His grave was shown as an evident of his death.  His former teammates, however, still visit him regularly offering mementos on his grave.  


  


His spirit came back warning the Gokaiger to attain Jetman power on their own and not bother the other Jetmen who are now living peacefully.  I was also ecstatic watching Jetman again in the new age.


MY OPINION

Gai's ghost

  

Though, the writers came up with lucidity through this episode, somehow I'm still sad of the fact that Gai really died at then end.  Hence, it was a good reminiscent seeing the older Gai (Toshihide Wakamatsu) fight again as black condor.  He was like the young Gai in Jetman, obnoxious at first but righteous in the end.  Toshiki Inoue gave justice in bringing  Gai's character again.  Truly a great bet to Toshihide of not writing anymore if he would reject this appearance. Maybe, he had read a lot of fans complaining of Gai's death and came up with this answer.  How noble it may get?


Gai's music then and now
  


Gokaiger also features Bioman and Maskman bringing back my childhood memories (two of the most popular sentai series in the Philippines).


Original Maskman   
Gokaiger Maskman




Original Bioman      


 Gokaiger Bioman




Original Jetman   


Gokaiger Jetman

Gai as Black Condor

  

Gai and Black Condor

His final battle with Grey

   

His battle with Kiaido 

Gai to Ryu in final episode of Jetman:  That was the blue sky we used to protect.







Gai to Joe:  Now, it's your team's time to protect the blue sky.


 

Gifts for my friends - Ashe's Boss Day 11

I woke early today to meet up and have breakfast with my former colleagues.  I miss them a lot.  I readied all the gifts I'd be giving to them.  Those were the perfumes I personally made.  My version of Chanel #5.  I put them to a 5-mL bottle.  Those I'd be giving to my mommies in QA and for Maam Donna were in a bigger and  and more elegant bottle.  I hope they like it.  Good thing, McDonalds in Paseo Center was still opened.  It was like a "blast from the past" when I saw PP together with Mojacko and Alfred (haha) passing by inside the building.  I remember those times when I thought they could notice I liked Ashe's Boss.  Yeah, I just thought they did.  Right now, at least I proved how much Ashe's Boss really mean to me.  I guess they've already noticed I'm no longer working in the company.

I was ecstatic when I so Jo and Ron.  I missed my little sis and my little bro in the company.  I handed to Jo my gift to her.  She also had a gift for me.  I texted another friend, Jen that I was in McDo.  I also texted Meann.  Then, we started telling our lives in the past few months.  I knew there were so much to talk about.  Until Jen came.  I asked Ron to take a picture of the 3 of us.  Sorry, Ron.  I was very happy seeing my 2 closest friends.  I knew they were quite okay.  Jo and Ron got up to the production for their shifts.  Jen was left with me as we continued having breakfast.  She bought food for me as well (for lunch).  She asked me to do a list of the perfumes so she could order and tell about it to others.  I thought it was a great idea.  I hope I could do that within the next few weeks.

Then, she told me she would like to buy "Banapple" for me.  It was at the chain of food stalls at the Ayala Triangle.  It was just across the Paseo Center.  We went there while still talking about our whereabouts.  As we enter, I saw 2 QAs.  I was wishing that they were waiting for their former boss there.  Just hoping.  I knew Ashe's Boss won't want to talk or even bump into with former colleagues.  I just hope he's really healed.  I was overwhelmed with the foods Jen bought for me.  After that, I went up with her to hand the gifts I'd be giving to Maam Donna, Ate Dory, and Mommy G.  The 2 security guard (kuyas) greeted me and  asked me, "How are you, maam?  Merry Christmas.  I know they could still remember me.  It's nice seeing them. I then texted Maam Donna that I was in the reception area.  When I saw her, I shrieked in excitement.  She immediately told me that she hadn't given yet the gifts I wanted to give to Ashe's Boss. I told her she could give that next year. I was somewhat relieved because I thought that was the reason why he deleted her and Ate Dory as FBs friends.  I thought it maybe not.  However, it still baffled me somehow.  I told Maam Donna that I wanted to watch the concert of "Coro Animo" last November but I couldn't file a leave.  She told me that Ashe's Boss would like that; that someone he knew was watching the concert.  Okay, next time they would have a concert, I would definitely watch it.  I just wish he's there.  I just asked Maam Donna to hand my gifts to Mommy G (whose on leave) and Ate Dory.  I was kinda shy to ask for her.  Then, I bid goodbye to her.  I wasn't emotional when I went down the building.  I was just happy seeing them and giving them gifts.  Some of the gifts were for other friends who couldn't go out the production because of the break tracker.  I wish I could talk to them some other time.  I'm thanking the Lord that he allowed me to give small happiness to my friends.

I also just bought gifts to my mom and dad since my sister texted me that my dad was complaining he has only few clothes.  I hope these clothes would fit them.

Tonight, I won't be spending Noche Buena for the first time.  After work, hopefully, I could hear Christmas Eve Mass then I would just go to bed and prepare for tomorrow's work.  Not the same Christmas I used to spend but, I'm really happy knowing that I already gave the Birthday Celebrant (Jesus Christ) my gifts to HIM.

May all of us remember the His Great love is the true meaning of Christmas.

Merry Christmas to all!

From Edsa to Mckinley Hill

Since the Suntrust Properties' main office is located in Mckinley Hill, I had to find a way to go to there without hurting your pocket riding a cab (which I usually do everytime I need to go to a place here in NCR for the first time). Voila! I discovered how to get there with a regular fare.  I just had to tolerate some little traffic on the way.


Here's a simple direction on how to travel from Edsa to Mckinley Hill. 


If you came from south, ride a city bus going with sign board Cubao/Ayala/Ortigas and then go down to Guadalupe.  Look for Jollibee as the landmark for the jeepney terminal. Ride the jeepney with signboard "Housing/Market Market/Gate 3/Mckinley Hill".  This jeep will pass by Mckinley Hill.


You can also take MRT then go down to Guadalupe station.  Look for Jollibee as the landmark for the jeepney terminal. Ride the jeepney with signboard " Housing/Market Market/Gate 3/Mckinley Hill ".  This jeep will pass by Mckinley Hill.


If you came from north, ride a city bus going to Ayala/MIA/Alabang/LRT Leveriza then go down to Guadalupe.   Look for Jollibee as the landmark for the jeepney terminal. Ride the jeepney with signboard " Housing/Market Market/Gate 3/Mckinley Hill ".  This jeep will pass by Mckinley Hill.


You can also take MRT then go down to Guadalupe station.  Look for Jollibee as the landmark for the jeepney terminal. Ride the jeepney with signboard " Housing/Market Market/Gate 3/Mckinley Hill ".  This jeep will pass by Mckinley Hill.


That simple!

Will definitely miss Feast

I will definitely miss Feast for 2 weeks.  I hope I could still attend Feast in 2012.  I hope my schedule won't hinder it.  I hope can attend Feast Ortigas as well.  I'm really hoping that I could be a part of training ministry.

The last Feast 2011 was really remarkable.  It made me cry.  Bro. Bo told there that instead of grumble be grateful.  This 2011, I think I became more grateful with things happened in my life.  I'm really grateful for where I am now.  Just last Saturday, I attended the perfumer seminar.  I told myself, hey, I learned new stuff.  Last Sunday after Feast I hurried to the store to buy the materials.  I couldn't wait to go home to Laguna to start making perfumes.  I just didn't buy the measuring materials because I thought they were too expensive.  I just tried to find other measuring cups that we're not using anymore.  The only thing I tried to find was the 5mL graduated cylinder.  I needed to measure mL and the measuring cups I had had only 10 mL on it.  I went to all bookstores in our town to look for graduated cylinder but no one had it.  Finally, I decided to go to SM National Bookstore, but sad to say, it wasn't available also.  I instead asked the cashier if they had stirring rod.  The guy showed it to me and when I asked him how much, he said that he would just look for the price.  He went upstairs.  I waited for 20 minutes hoping that it would be much cheaper than the other stirring rod I first saw.  When I saw the guy went down panting his way back to the cash registry, he told me Php 97.25.  I told him okay, I'll get it.  I pitied him for his effort so I just bought it, payment for his effort.  He was anyway very welcoming of me.  That's the price of being passionate to your work. I devoted my 2 days off mixing and bottling the perfumes.  I'd be giving those to my former colleagues.  Those are my personalized version.  I hope they'd like it.  I also hope I could start a business from this.  Cross fingers!

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Emporio Armani - Diamonds
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Victoria's Secret - Pink
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Provocative by Elizabeth Arden
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Fahrenheit by Christian Dior
Havana by Aramis
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Issey Miyake by Issey Miyake
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Life by Aramis
D&G Light Blue by Dolce and Gabbanna
Paco Rabanne by Paco Rabanne
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Diesel by Diesel
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Christian Dior - J'adore
Paris Hilton - Paris Hilton
Chanel - No.5
Hugo Boss - Hugo Woman
DKNY - Be Delicious Woman
Lacoste - Inspiration
Versace - Crystal Noir
Lancome - Miracle
Emporio Armani - Diamonds
Moschino - I Love Love
Estee Lauder - Pleasures
Estee Lauder - Pure White Linen
Issey Miyake - L'eau De Issey
Christian Dior - J'adore L'eau Cologne Florale
Bvlgari - Blv Eau De Parfum II
Elizabeth Arden - Green Tea
Cacharel - Amor Amor
Dolce & Gabbana - Light Blue
Lancome - Hypnose
Giorgio Armani - Armani Code
Christian Dior - Hypnotic Poison
Incanto Charm - Ferrgamo
Burberry - Burberry London
Gucci - Rush
Chanel #5 - Chanel
Victoria's Secret - Pink
Poeme by Lancome
Poison by Christian Dior
Provocative by Elizabeth Arden
The One by Dolce and Gabbanna

FOR MEN

Black Code by Armani
Black XS by Paco Rabanne
Blue Jeans by Versace
Boss Bottled by Hugo Boss
Bvlgari Blue by Bvlgari
Cool Waters by Davidoff
Desire by Dunhill
Fahrenheit by Christian Dior
Havana by Aramis
Hugo Boss Dark Blue by Hugo Boss
Issey Miyake by Issey Miyake
Jean Paul Gaultier by Jean Paul Gaultier
Life by Aramis
D&G Light Blue by Dolce and Gabbanna
Paco Rabanne by Paco Rabanne
Prada by Prada
Paco Rabanne Black XS by Paco Rabanne
Diesel by Diesel
Carolina Herrera 212 by Carolina Herrera

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* Cash on delivery (upon meet ups for 5 or more items only) I can meet up buyers at Glorietta Ayala Makati, Market Market Mall, Shangrila Mall Edsa, SM Megamall, Robinsons Pioneer, Rockwell Powerplant, MRT Stations, (SM Calamba, or Waltermart Calamba by appointment).

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Last Feast For 2011 - Ashe's Boss Day 10

Good thing, I managed to attend the last Feast for 2011.  There would be no Feast on Christmas Day and New Year.  That's my big problem right now; where to attend mass on December 24 and 25?  Anyway, I was hoping that the mass would be a special one.  I was quite excited  for that.  That would be a Christmas Mass for the Feast attendees.  I was right.

Nostalgia of 2011 - Ashe's Boss Day 10

Starting today I will be blogging past events that happened to me this 2011, month per month, beginning January 2011.  It's because a lot has happened to my life this 2011.  I have learned a lot, met new friends, have a new job, taken challenges, found new mentors, etc.  Now, let me start.

January 2011

New year, new beginning, just as I thought.  I'm one of those few people who has full of hope and energized everytime New year comes.  I also had my own New Year's resolution.  Obviously, I failed to do that, to lose weight.  I'm not that fat but I still want to see myself thinner to fit  and to look good with dresses I want to wear.

I was still with my former company during this period.  I was still hoping that my Christmas wishes would be granted.  I was willing to receive it open arms even if God sent those to me late.  What was that?  To get promoted and to meet Ashe's boss.  The promotion was not just for the salary increase.  Many editors in our company were telling me that my salary was higher than theirs plus there was more pressure with their jobs.  That was true.  But more than the salary itself, I wanted to feel growth in the company I was working with for more than 2 years.  I won't say that money was not important, but  I need to grow.  I didn't want to remain stagnated.  But my superiors were blind with whatever "best I did with my job."  I prayed to God that I was willing to wait for it to happen, anyway, I had a reason to stay still with the company.  I didn't want to resign because Ashe's boss was still there.  He was still with the company.  I thought if I would resign, I won't be able to see him.  Some would think it was a very shallow reason.  But I guess, it was one way to hold on with my job.  Any unemployed Filipino living in the Philippines would understand why one has to endure to stay in the company they work with even though they're not happy at all because of the high unemployment rate in the Philippines.  It's not like if you resigned then applied to another company, you would get hired immediately.  I experienced that, so I didn't want to take the risk.  As most of Filipinos say, "At least you have a job.  At least you're earning."  It's a sad truth.  Some would take the risk only to find out that the new company who hired them is worse than their former company.  Isn't that ironic?

If I found happiness and enjoyment inside my workplace, it was because of Ashe's boss.  He made me stay in the company to keep the hope that sooner I'd finally get promoted. That's why I continued doing my job the best that I could.  I still continued to be a team player in spite all of the intrigues, the politics, and all in our account.  I became more professional.

Listen without prejudice - Ashe's Boss Day 9

I planned everything.  I'm organizing as I act towards what I desire.  I didn't plan to tell the whole world about this.  I want to feel all the blessings that I'm getting.  I want to enjoy it.  I know if I would just stick on my job, nothing would happen and so I started to visualize God's dreams for me. But I didn't realize that there would be a person who would discourage me.  Not just an ordinary person, but a person really close to me.

I'm a good listener.  I know when to comment and when just to listen to friend's stories.   That's why my friends love to tell their stories to me.  They know if they did something out of this world, I would just smile and won't condemn them.

This morning, I was depositing my payment for a seminar.  It's a 50% off seminar, and I want to take advantage on that.  I would only pay Php 250.  When this person asked me what was that for,  I was skeptical if I would tell him.  He won't understand anyway.  I knew he really won't.  But as I told you, he was really a very close person to me.  The line in the bank was tremendous.  Good thing, we knew an employee there and she helped us with the payment  (sorry for those who were lined up earlier than us).  When we're about to leave the bank, he asked again what was that for.  I finally told him the truth that it was a payment for a seminar because I'm planning to venture to this small business with a small capital.  He reacted violently with his loud voice.  Most likely, he was discouraging me.  It was painful.  The lack of support from them since I was young flashed back from mind then traveled down to my heart which felt like a stab.  I  stayed still.  I convinced myself I should understand him.  I still talked to him pretending I wasn't not affected by his reaction.  Waiting for the bus was so long, I wouldn't want to spend several more minutes beside him.  I just wanted to be out of his sight to let my tears fall, but I continued pretending I was okay.  The wait was so long and finally, a bus to Cubao arrived.  I went down the car and waved - gesturing that I would already ride the bus.  Inside the bus, I could still feel the pain.  I was praying to God that He took away that pain and that I won't get discouraged and still continue to act to materialize my vision.  God whispered to me that I should say yes this to Him this time.

I remember when I rejected Him when I was young.  I didn't continue my organ lesson to be the organ player in our chapel.  I was only a teenager that time.  I would rather play, watch TV, or just stay home.  I skipped the organ lessons until I found myself avoiding to hear Holy Mass in our chapel.  Instead, I would attend Holy Mass in the town proper church.  I didn't realize I was refusing Him.  Until I read this blog from Bro. Bo Sanchez http://bosanchez.ph/god-will-use-you-if-you-say-yes/.  I felt bad about this.  I didn't imagine that since young, even though I have that desire to serve Him, I said no to Him.  Now, with all passion, I know I'm slowly on my way back to where He wanted me to be many years ago.  He could have been used me all those years.  But now, I really know He wants me to serve.  I am now willing to say yes to my Creator.

I have a wish today, I hope I could draw Ashe's boss towards Him as well.  He's not prayerful-type of person but I know he's a member of chorale.  Somehow, if his chorale group is singing for a Holy Mass, he's still serving.  Somehow.  I don't know how.  Being with him, I could not find anyway.  After weeks of thinking how to act on this dream, I finally took the risk.  I wish he would find time to be bothered.  It's for him and for his family.

Wishes - Ashe's Boss Day 8

I wasn't not used to asking or wishing anything.  It was hard for me to generate my heart's desire to my mind then to my mouth.  I would feel it but I couldn't say it.  I think I was really shy and was scared to be rejected.  I grew up working hard by myself to attain what I want.  I was independent in that aspect.  It's totally different now.  I guess I've grown to know more about myself.  God led me to learning how to put what's inside my heart into words, including Ashe's boss (that's why he's included in my Novena.  Now, I know what to ask and would still act to make my wishes/my desires happen.  Just one thing I know I can't do anything about it, doing something to be with him.  All of my dreams as of this very moment; I'm doing something to make them happen.  It's totally different when it comes to him.  I wish I would know how.

This year, I have to work on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.  This is the first Christmas I won't be spending with my family.  The thought of it makes me sad (really sad).  I've always loved Christmas (just like young kids excited with opening their gifts and receiving aguinaldo from their relatives, godfather, and godmother).  I only had simple Christmas celebrations with my family.  We would go to Christmas Eve Mass and watch the "Panunuluyan"  (a small role play about Joseph and Mary looking for a place for Jesus' birth through song).  After the Mass, we'd eat Noche Buena.  But I think it would still be different if I won't be spending this year's Christmas with my family.

Suddenly, a wish came in my mind.  I hope I could celebrate Christmas with him and his family instead.  They live in Makati, and it's not far from my place.  I just want to celebrate Christmas with people "I love" (wink).

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I deleted my blog entries.  Such a mess.

What to write? - Ashe's Boss Day 8

Ashe's boss mother is sick.  I hope she'll get better.  I really am hoping for miracle to happen, that one day she'd be healed, one day she could walk again.  I saw her picture.  She seemed to be a good mom.  I know she's proud of her eldest son.  

New World - Ashe's Boss Day 7

Where could he be?
I'm wondering what he is doing
I hope he's wearing a smile
I hope he's always fine

Can't think of any post today.  I'm quite exhausted but I find this new world exciting and thrilling.  May the Lord help me settle in this path.

Bully Kid - Ashe's Boss Day 6

I was browsing the net in preparation for tomorrow's appointment with Miss Doris.  I was doing a research when I stumbled on this blog http://martinaquino.wordpress.com/2007/04/07/im-getting-a-story-published-in-kerygma-magazine.  I was intrigued because somewhere in my heart, I also want to be featured in Kerygma Magazine (hehe). Seriously.  But it depends how interesting and inspiring my life is or was.  While reading this article, I remember again a special someone (Ashe's Boss, of course).  Remember Maam Donna?  She used to tell me that he was being bullied when he was in high school (at Don Bosco Makati) by Sir Marco (supervisor of the MT-Georgia account in my former company and a friend of mine).  When I heard about this story, I confronted him (in a friendly, joking manner).  I asked him, "Sir, did you really bully him when you were in high school?"  He nodded while laughing.  I asked again, "What were you doing to him?"  He said, "nothing, I was a good boy."  I rolled my eyes and raised my eyebrow.  I knew Ashe's Boss used to be a commandant in his senior year.  He was a kind commandant from what I heard, very patient.  He was aloof back then and would just stay inside the library to read.  Isn't it quite strange that my high school  crush (my first crush) used to be in the library all the time and aloof to my boy classmates also? Am I meant to like this type of guys?  I guess I'm meant to be a geek stalker.  I used to go in our school library before just to take a glimpse of him while pretending to read books.  But later on, I found reading books really satisfying, thrilling, and full of learning.

I thought that the situation of bullying and being the bully victim was funny.  This is similar to movies where two people who knew each other when they were young separated and crossed  each other's path again.  How sweet?   As for Sir Marco, everytime he sees Ashe's Boss in the office, he would hide from him.  Haha!  Lesson learned, be kind to people you encounter everyday because you won't know, you might see that person again in another place and time.

Last night's dream - Ashe's Boss Day 5

Last Friday, toxicity got into my brains, so I failed to put an entry.  Yesterday was my day off.  Now,  I'm continuing this blog's existence.

Last night, I dreamt of Maam Donna (co-QA supervisor of Ashe's boss) and Ate Dory (his QA analyst) .   I didn't know where we were.  All I can remember was there were 2 nipa huts, like the ones we used in Subic during company's outing this year.  When I saw Maam Donna,  I hugged her and told her, "condolence, Maam Donna."  (I read in FB that Maam Donna's dad  passed away several weeks ago.  I felt sad about that.)   She stayed in the other nipa hut with her QA analysts.  Yes, they were also his QA analysts.  I felt  I started missing him.  It felt like that dream happened after his resignation.  I was sitting in the nipa hut with Ate Dory.  I talked to Ate Dory and told her that I missed her and Maam Donna.  I can't remember if I asked her about him.  Maybe, I was shy.  I didn't want to use my closeness with her to know his whereabouts, just as before.  That's far from his knowledge.   Why?  Until now, I'm still wondering why he deleted these 2 friends of ours in FB.  Is it possible that I'm the reason why?  He might be thinking they're trying to matchmake him with me.  At some point I know my fault, but it wasn't a henious crime.  I just wanted to lift him up during that dark moment of his life.  It was just a message.  I'm not a bad person after all.

Putting Clarity

I knew both Ate Dory and Maam Donna.  They knew that I liked him, but I already liked him long time ago before I admitted to them.  I became somehow close to Ate Dory when we rode the same bus to Laguna (we both go home to Laguna during our 2 days off).   She knew me by face before that.  My station that time was near to the QAs' station.  We chatted inside the bus.   We became friends in FB.  We would leave comments to each other's wall.  Until one time, I wrote something about Ashe's boss in my wall, something about my admiration to him, but I didn't mention his name, of course.  Ate Dory asked me who was this guy.  I emailed her and told her it was her supervisor.  She never said that to anyone, I knew that.  She was just with me as I enjoyed the feeling.

With Maam Donna, I knew her eversince I applied in the company.  She was the one who conducted my 2nd interview.  She was supposedly my supervisor if the account  didn't pull out.   She only texted me that I passed the assessment and just needed to wait for another account.  After months of waiting, I could start working.  I even looked for her during my orientation (the exact day when I first saw Ashe's boss and had a crush on him) only to find out that she wouldn't be my supervisor.  I was dissappointed, but I just wished that the new one would be nice and kind as well.  Obviously, my wish wasn't not granted.  Maam Donna knew the hell that me and my collegeaues experienced in "that another account."  I would always tell her that I didn't owe anything from "that supervisor" because she was the one who said "okay" to HR to hire me.  That's the truth!  Had I resigned before I became close to her, I would still go to her and thank her for everything.  She was the one who first knew I would resign.  I respect her a lot.  Aw, I miss Maam Donna!   I miss going to her station before going home, chatting with her, telling her my dissatisfactions, my dissappointments, my complains, etc. to my superiors.

The Clarification

Ashe's boss and I have quite a few common friends (close acquaintances, that's better to say).  But I didn't ask them to help me introduce to him.  Thank God I'm a shy-type person and I don't want to use people (especially my friends) for my own satisfaction.  Yeah, it was really painful just seeing him everyday from afar but I knew I could do nothing about it.  A former colleague bombarded me with tease to use my "connections."  He exasperately asked, "You're contented with that?" He was referring to my stealth glimpses to him.  Again, I didn't ask our common friends to introduce me to him.  I thought it was kinda weird and inappropriate on my part.  And the mere fact that many people thought he didn't deserve me.  That was the time when I was in deep state of paranoia because of the truly, madly, deeply in love feeling towards this guy.  My mind was in great overdrive while my heart was in cloud nine.  At this moment, thinking of those times, tears run to my face but I don't regret doing nothing.  You know why, because somehow, God allowed me to have close encounters with him.  Somehow, He allowed me to be with him in the elevator just for 10+ seconds - that's from ground floor to 5th floor or vice versa.  Those were the times you could catch me trembling during summer time.  Or worst thing that could happen, faint!

Back to my dream

I don't know why I dreamt of Maam Donna and Ate Dory.  I guess I miss them a lot or that thing really bothers me if something not so good happened.  I remember when I was having my clearance, I gave them gifts.  Gifts of gratitude, thanking them for always listening to my grievances and their advices.  After all, the last few months before I left the company, I didn't know who to trust; everyone was playing safe.  Only them together with the rest of the QA morning shift comforted me and cheered me up.  I will always be grateful to you, guys.

Good thing - Ashe's Boss Day 4

I miss him again.  Good thing, he changed his profile pic.  He's still semi-bald.  Longing to see him sooner.

He was my strength.  It was really hard at work but everytime I see him, all the heartaches would go away.  I always remember my closest encounter with you.  You were in front of me, so near to me.  And I wanted to hug you.  I thought I saw a glimpse of forever.

From Introvoys' hit song Will I Survive

I have this feeling inside me that I always try to hide
This feeling has never ended didn't ever subside